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Sunday, 11 March 2007

so it's funny how no one uses these anymore. I almost got in a huge car accident yesterday. with three of my dearest friends in the car. yeah, that's right, i almost killed three of my dearest friends. I feel like scum for it, even though it was an accident i wasn't paying attention and well i should've been. it's uncharacteristic of me to be totally distracted. We were going out to celebrate a birthday in Springfield, and i was going to take 44 to get there cause it would be faster. well, we passed the "off ramp", or so I thought, so the next ramp would be the "on" right? right. well, it wasn't. I guess I passed a service road or something but I pulled out into on coming traffic and was about ready to pull on the off ramp from the highway. I soon realized what was going on and put on the brakes, only to see a truck with a trailer hitched on speeding towards us. The trucker was able to change lanes so all collision was avoided, but Just the thought of hurting any one of those dear people, brings me grief. I can't believe i was so stupid to let my guard down. Yes, there was loud music and a lot of excitement to contribute to my distraction but still i should've been watching. what could've happened? Nothing. because God was watching out for us. He was right there to protect us. Yeah, i was startled, and i cried a little, but God was right there comforting me and speaking through a friend. He said " it's alright, you are safe. I was there protecting you. calm down and just enjoy the night." So i did, mostly. My sister was also in town and wanted to catch up, and i was really mean to her (unknowingly) and said that our table was full, which it was. but still i know we could've made room, and i shouldn't have blown her off like that. I feel like crap for that, but i guess that's how she felt when i told her there wasn't room. I am still pretty embarassed, but that's ok. This experience definately opened my eyes to how God really is there protecting us until our time comes. He loves us beyond our wildest thoughts. Remember that as you go throughout your day.

Monday, 30 October 2006

Today in the Chapel service, something very profound occured to me. Dr. Reeves, a professor of the Redford college (the college for those going into the ministry), was speaking about how Americans live to eat. Not completely in the food context, but why did God make food taste good? I mean, He could've made it tasteless or just awful in flavor, but He chose to make it taste supreme. Why did God make the earth beautiful? These two questions were answered the same: so that we would want to know the Creator of such beauty more. God made these wonderful things so that we may yearn to know Him better. As of 2000, if not earlier, the American dream has changed to "We want more." Americans consume all these resources while the rest of the world stands by and wonders when we will be satisfied. There are starving people all over the world, and there are people with nothing but the clothes on their backs. I agree with Dr. Reeves when he said this, 'I'm tired of being a consumer.' I am tired of it as well. We want and we take and take. We are using up our resources faster than more can be made. I am going to want less and give more. I remember my trip to Haiti and one thing that I will never forget is that even though those people had nothing, they had everything they needed because they had Christ in their lives. If you who read this are going to take one thing from this with you, let it be to give more and want less. Give your time, your energy, your love, and your life to serving the God who made all things that we may take joy in them. That is my lesson for the day. The best is yet to come.

Thursday, 05 October 2006

someone's getting her ear pierced:)... but, shhhhh, you don't know anything. i miss you all back home like crazy and i hope i can spend some time with you over my fall break, which is oct 11-16. yeah, you better schedule a time for me. can't wait to see YOU!

Thursday, 28 September 2006

Have you ever been alone with God?

"When they were alone, He expounded all things to His disciples." Mark 4:34

Our Solitude with Him. Jesus does not take us alone and expound things to us all the time; He expounds things to us as we can understand them. Other lives are parables. God is making us spell out our own souls. It is slow work, so slow that it takes God all time and eternity to make a man and woman after His own purpose. The only way we can be of use to God is to let Him take us through the crooks and crannies of our own characters. It is astounding how ignorant we are about ourselves! We do not know envy when we see it, or laziness, or pride. Jesus reveals to us all that this body has been harbouring before His grace began to work. How many of us have learned to look in with courage?

We have to get rid of the idea that we understand ourselves, it is the last conceit to go. The only One Who understands us is God. The greatest curse in spiritual life is conceit. If we have ever had a glimpse of what we are like in the sight of God, we shall never say - "Oh, I am so unworthy," because we shall know we are, beyond the possibility of stating it. As long as we are not quite sure that we are unworthy, God will keep narrowing us in until He gets us alone. Wherever there is any element of pride or of conceit, Jesus cannot expound a thing. He will take us through the disappointment of a wounded pride of intellect, through disappointment of heart. He will reveal inordinate affection - things over which we never thought He would have to get us alone. We listen to many things in classes, but they are not an exposition to us yet. They will be when God gets us alone over them.

Thursday, 31 August 2006

hm...

wow... three weeks gone. i love college. the people are amazing and classes are good. I'm having a blast and well, there's not a whole lot to say.